Sometimes...

In my car I pretend I'm famous and singing at a concert and everyone thinks I'm great.

I say I have plans when people ask me to do things so I don't have to go out because I can't afford it.

I daydream about going and buying a cheep set of dishes and breaking them all one by one. I think it would be fun.

When I eat in front of people I want to put more salt and butter on my food but I don't because I think people will think I'm gross.

My eyes blur out until everything goes black for a few seconds and then it comes back and I've never asked the doctor why because it has been going on so long that I assume everyone's do it. My ears fade out to nothing too but not as often.

I wish I remember more from being a kid because my sister remembers so much and all I have is a few stories and that's it.

I think about Christmas and I don't like it because I don't have my own family while everyone spends the day with theirs and I sit around alone.

I feel like I work with Grade Nines. Actually, all the time. Especially today.

I get this nervous feeling out of the blue in the middle of the night and I don't know why.

I think I'm going to die early and it doesn't bother me.

I'm temped to tell someone a secret I have and is STILL on going since high school but I chicken out every time. Even to my sister. I wrote it down on here and deleted it and wrote this instead and probably this will be the closest I'll ever come to saying it besides to the online club I joined so I could talk to people about it who understand.

When I think back about how badly I chewed my finger nails it makes me gag. Literally.

I make my cat do sit ups because I think she needs to loose weight and this will help.

This whole post started because I heard the song "Sometimes" by Britney Spears and it got stuck in my head. I was gonna write a bunch of funny stuff but I think being sick and grumpy and high on cold medication made it far more depressing than it should have been.